It has been quite some time, eh?

Hey there!

It has been a long time, eh? I've been busy and not-so busy (times when I sit down and sulk). Looking for a graduate job isn't easy. It's hell of a ride. Rejections after rejections after rejections, being demotivated, feeling depressed, feeling financially insecure.. thank God all those are coming to an end now.

After 6 long months of being unemployed, I'm finally starting work tomorrow. Although it's not a continuing position (it's only for 4 months, since it's a project) and it's not my dream job (it's not related to my degree), I reckon it will be a good experience. Moreover, it will look pretty good on my resume as I'll be working with my University (yes, Melbourne University).

4 months will fly by and I'll be back to where I was: feeling rejected, demotivated, depressed, and financially insecure.

No one will know how it feels to be unemployed (unless you've been there) and the feeling of the world coming to an end.. but I guess things happen for a reason. So I've been told.

Let's just hope that things will work out alright after 4 months.

My sister and I left for Warrnambool (still in Victoria, about 4 hours drive from Melbourne) last Friday in the morning for our short Easter break. We stayed over at Lavi's (ex, ex-housemate) place during our stay.

We went to Time and Tide Gallery Cafe again. How can we not eat our favourite Smoked Trout Salad while enjoying the view of Logans Beach, right?

We had a lot of fun at Lake Pertobe, which is just next to Stingray Bay and Lady Bay. Four of us hired two mini motor boats and rode around the lake like small kids. It was fun, but the boat was pretty difficult to manoeuvre! My sister nearly capsized the boat and we nearly fell into the not-so-clean lake water.

We went to Stingray Bay for some sun tanning session. The water was icy cold and the tide was low. It was all good!

After trying to decide where to go on Saturday, we drove all the way to Mount Gambier, South Australia! How exciting!

Upon arrival, we visited the information centre. Soon, we headed to Blue Lake to enjoy the "blueness" of the water. Oh my God, the sight was fantastic!

Then we headed to Engelbrecht Cave, which wasn't that nice. I mean, the cave in itself is nice, but nothing to shout about. Thank God my ticket fee was at student price!

Where did we go next? We went to Port MacDonnell, which was 30 minutes away from Mount Gambier. The wind was so strong and cold, so much so my ears started to hurt.. for the first time.

I've put in (or wasted) a lot of effort and time into designing and creating this page, so I'll just leave it be. If you'd like more frequent thoughts and updates, check out my Tumblr site Silent Soliloquy.

...to let this site go.

I still quite like my PC.

The thing is.. I'd like to be as neutral as possible in the heated debate between Mac and PC users. It's really petrifying to be involved in it. I have PC and Mac friends, and oh come on, should we even quarrel and risk our friendships over this debate?

But I do like my new Mac.

I'm starting to become accustomed to it. Me loike!

I went for a job interview yesterday at 1.15pm. I was a little paranoid (and definitely nervous, of course) so I left my house early, like really early, and drove to GradSolutions. There were a few interviewees before me and a couple after me. I timed them all and they were all interviewed for no more than 15 minutes. Unfortunately for me, my interview session lasted for no more than 10 minutes.

Might I add, I wasn't thaaatt professional in answering the questions.. I said a lot of things like "stuff" and "like that". So colloquial, I know! But hey, it was my first professional interview.

So I drove home and had a video call with mom. While waiting for mom to switch from Skype to MSN, GradSolutions called me! They called and asked me to go in for a trial session tomorrow from 10.30am-4pm! I'm not sure if I should be happy, but I'm more nervous than I was for the interview. Why? I'm going to be put on the spot and I've got to perform well. All eyes are going to be on me when I communicate with potential clients.

Oh, and I forgot to mention, my potential title would be Marketing Consultant.

Like O. M. G.

I'm going to pee in my pants!

In a glimpse of an eye and we're in 2010. I bet everyone agrees with me that time passes by really fast and 2010 will not be an exception. Christmas came and left, so New Year's was the same. But really, are our minds infinite? Can we foster all our memories in our brains?

I graduated on the 15th of December last year and the phrase "last year" just seems so wrong. When I was in high school, I could never picture myself in college. I was never a bright student, but who could blame me when our Malaysian education system was (and probably still is) dry and boring? I managed to do pretty alright in my last high school year and was accepted into the college that I (sort of) wanted. I could have missed out on the acceptance, really. Then 2006 kicked in and things got better. Surprisingly, I did very well in college. I didn't "turn over a new leaf", it was just that the Canadian education system sat well with me and I enjoyed studying. For the first time, studying wasn't a chore. I graduated from college in December amongst the top students who scored 80% and above. A job well done, I suppose. One of my proudest moments ever! Then came 2007. Who would have thought that The University of Melbourne would accept me? Clearly, my doubts were wrong. UoM accepted me and I embarked on a journey that I thought I never would. I had a few rough times, but that was what made me stronger and more persistent. I did alright in Uni, I was above average. Second class honours is to die for, but as we all know it, we always want more. I wanted more and I almost hit rock bottom when things didn't go my way. Anyways, I graduated regardless.

I could never see myself in Uni, but here I am! A fresh graduated of UoM. I should be proud of myself.. yet, I have more doubts than before.

How am I going to look for a job when no one wants me simply because I lack experience? If no one wants to hire me because I lack experience, I'll never get any experience. Thus, I'll be an unemployed graduate. Forever. No longer fresh, but old and inexperienced.

It's now 2010. I don't have any resolutions in particular, but I guess my general resolution is to take each day as it comes. Whatever it is, things happen for a reason. I have overcome some of life's hurdles, I might as well just sit tight and overcome the next hurdle with a better perspective.

So here's to a new year.

Happy New Year!

I watched the live welcoming/opening ceremony of the Copenhagen conference not too long ago. The opening film by the Danes were so touching, so much so that I teared a little. But to be honest, it was a very depressing start.

Today marks the first day of negotiations.

I have been tweeting and blogging about the countdown on Twitter and Tumblr. I have this feeling many friends are annoyed at my tweets and posts because (obviously) they do not have the same interest as I have, but who cares. The world and the population are what matters now.

Voice out your hopes here. Let the world leaders know how you feel, what you want the outcome of COP15 to be - a legally binding agreement!

Failure in the Copenhagen negotiations is not an option!

Sorry for the lack of updates over the past few weeks. Metaphorically speaking, I was strapped on tight onto the seat of a roller coaster and I could not get off the ride until it made a full circle (or else, I would die). I am glad to say, however, despite fearing for my life, I managed to get off the ride alive. Regarding my internals, I am not quite sure if they are still intact, but I will have to wait and see when the results are out!

So if you will, hang on there a little longer with me!

Other than that, life is still life.

Ellie left for Singapore (then to Malaysia-Singapore-back-and-forth) this morning at eleven. I am a bit disappointed because I am unable to show her around, but oh well. I had a very early dinner with her the night before she left and we had a good catch up talk. We rarely hang out, but I like it that way. We get to talk a whole bunch when we meet up! I love long talks! It is true that absence makes the heart grow fonder. So yes, I suggested places for her to go and I hope she has enough time! I mean, three weeks in Singapore and Malaysia? That is a long time, right? I hope she emails me like when she was on exchange in China! :)

I received my super belated birthday present from Sheryl today. She made a square pillow/cushion (whatever you want to call it) with a cupcake on it! Yes, she made it herself. How can you be upset with her? I really love it and I have no clue about what to name it. Anyway, I guess it is worse for me because she is leaving on the 27th for Singapore to work. She will return when her PR application has been approved. Thankfully, I met up with her today. We have been in constant lock down because it is (or was, rather) our final semester. It was good to see her.. for the last time. Well, kind of... One good friend down. I seriously need to hunt for Andrew now!

If you would like to see the pillow/cushion, check out my Tumblr site. I update my Tumblr very often and it is a blog for random thoughts and encounters (and if you are lucky, you will find good places to eat on it). As for this blog, can someone tell me what I should do with it? I want to delete it because I do not want to feel obliged to update it. It is more of a personal thing as oppose to Tumblr. I mean, I feel like I am free to do anything with Tumblr. I know it sounds weird, but I do not want to be tied down to something that I am no longer committed to (this does not apply to relationships). For now, I just want to do stuff on my own accord.

Life is too short, you know?